you start think that it's finally gone but then he writes you and you're back ..

back in love ..

state of mind

When you're so low that you can't talk even with you're best friend.

When you feel like you're lost into a big scary maze and you can't find way out.

You wanna change school because this one is just too dificult for you - may you'd like to go to an art school but then comes the feeling "I'm not good enough for school like this" and then .. what?

what will you do?

It's sure that you never will be the best, you will always be the worst one all the time ..

in chemistry you drawing whole lesson pictures in some paper. What if pictures you draw shows your passions, things you wanna do, wanna be .. some skulls unicorns, diamonds, some outer space stuffs - so you're going to be a dead astronaut who rides on his unicorn with fuckin' lots of diamonds throught the universe?

ain't it funny?

you're lost in this world and all you can do is smilling .. madman who smiles throught the bars of his own cell into an asylum. 

and then  it's all just a state of mind..

sometimes you feels like you don't care
no matter what happend.
you still do the same - walk in a crowd of people on school corridor, sitting on a chair and watching teacher trying to learn you something but you just not listening him..
everyday rutin.

Born of the sea

A thousand miles away from me

A court of angels, a ward of the sun

A future forming, a curse undone

Under our softly burning lamp she

Takes her time

Telling stories of our possible lives

And love is the ink in the well when her body writes

(The Shins - September)